Prince Harry has talked openly about the horrifying experiences he and Meghan Markle went through.

In his new docuseries, he told Oprah Winfrey that Meghan Markle was only prevented from killing herself as she didn’t want him ‘losing another woman in my life’.

The new docuseries is called The Me You Can’t See.

In the programme, Harry elaborates further about the night Meghan told him she was suicidal.

Meghan had previously talked about it in the bombshell interview with Oprah earlier this year. Piers Morgan went on to say he didn’t believe her, and eventually quit Good Morning Britain after a record number of complaints.

During the programme, viewers see footage of Harry and Meghan sitting together as the lights went down at the Royal Albert Hall in London.

It was this event that Meghan told Oprah about. As the lights went down, Meghan started crying.

“The Scariest Thing”

Meghan was pregnant with their son Archie and they had been married for less than a year when, in January 2019, she told him she was deeply depressed.

Harry said: “‘The thing that stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me after everything that had happened to my mum and to now to be put in a position of losing another woman in my life — with a baby inside of her, our baby,’ he said.

“The scariest thing for her was her clarity of thought.  She hadn’t ‘lost it’, she wasn’t crazy, she wasn’t self-medicating, be it through pills or through alcohol. She was absolutely sober, she was completely sane. Yet in the quiet of night, these thoughts woke her up.”

Harry admits: “I’m somewhat ashamed of the way that I dealt with them.”

“Responsibilities”

“And of course, because of the system that we were in and the responsibilities and the duties that we had, we had a quick cuddle and then we had to get changed to jump in a convoy with a police escort and drive to the Royal Albert Hall for a charity event. Then step out into a wall of cameras and pretend as though everything’s okay.”

“There wasn’t an option to say, ‘you know what, tonight, we’re not going to go’ because just imagine the stories that come from that.”

It was this night that Harry realised things could not carry on as they had been.

“While my wife and I were in those chairs, gripping each other’s hand, the moment the lights go down, Meghan starts crying. I’m feeling sorry for her, but I’m also really angry with myself that we’re stuck in this situation” he says.

“I was ashamed that it got this bad. I was ashamed to go to my family.”

“Because to be honest with you, like a lot of other people my age could probably relate to, I know that I’m not gonna get from my family what I need.”

“I then had a son who I’d far rather be solely focused on, rather than every time I look into his eyes, wondering whether my wife is going to end up like my mother and I’m going to have to look after him myself.”

“History Repeating Itself”

Prince Harry also said he feared “history repeating itself” after he began dating Markle.

He said the situation reminded him of his mother being pursued to her death while she was dating ‘someone who wasn’t white’.

His mother, the late Diana, Princess of Wales, died in 1997. Egyptian film producer Dodi Al Fayed also died, and the pair had been dating for several months.

“My mother was chased to her death while she was in a relationship with someone who wasn’t white. Now look what’s happened.”

“It’s incredibly triggering to potentially lose another woman in my life. Like, the list is growing, and it all comes back to the same people, the same business model, the same industry.”

Grief

He also talked about struggling with grief, and usage of drugs and alcohol to numb the pain.

Harry also talked about his family’s refusal to help when Meghan felt suicidal.

He credits therapy for “breaking the cycle”.

“For me, therapy has equipped me to be able to take on anything,’ he said.

“I knew if I didn’t do the therapy and fix myself I would lose this woman I could see spending the rest of my life [with].’

“Eventually when I made that decision for my family, I was still told, ‘You can’t do this”

“And it’s like, ‘Well how bad does it have to get until I am allowed to do this?”

“She [Markle] was going to end her life. It shouldn’t have to get to that.”

“Normal”

Harry also talked about how different he wished life could have been.

‘I always wanted to be normal, as opposed to being Prince Harry, just being Harry,’ he says.

‘It was a puzzling life. Unfortunately, when I think about my mum the first thing that comes to mind is always the same one, over and over again: Strapped in the car, seatbelt across. My brother in the car as well, and my mother driving and being chased by three, four, five mopeds with paparazzi on.’

He said his mother was left without support.

“She was almost unable to drive because of the tears, there was no protection” he says.

“One of the feelings that come up is helplessness. Being too young, being a guy too young to be able to help a woman, in this case, your mother, and that happened every single day until the day she died.”

Therapy

He says he has been seeing a therapist for the past four years.

Harry says in the past that he tried to push his mother from his mind.

“I don’t want to think about her. If I think about her then it’s going to bring up the fact that I can’t bring her back and it’s just going to make me sad,”

“What’s the point in thinking about something sad. What’s the point of thinking about someone that you’ve lost and you’re never going to get back again. I just decided not to talk about it.”

“Family members have said just play the game and your life will be easier”

“But I have a hell of a lot of my mum in me. I feel as though I am outside of the system but I’m still stuck there.”

“The only way to free yourself and break out is to tell the truth.”

He explained how difficult life can be: “We get followed. Photographed, chased, harassed. The clicking of cameras and the flashes of the cameras makes my blood boil.”

“It makes me angry and takes me back to what happened to my mom and what I experienced as a kid.”

The series will feature many other famous faces too.

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For confidential support call the Samaritans (UK) on 116 123 or the National Suicide Prevention Line (US) on 1-800-273-8255